Days gently melt one into the next.
Some days repeat themselves.
We trip over our own feet again and again, brush off the dirt, kiss the bruises, and forgive and forget again.
Some times it feels so very mundane. I wonder how a week, even a month, has passed by and when asked details about it, it is seldom I can recall many moments that stand out or what we spent our time doing.
But I know.
I know we cuddled on the couch and read and laughed.
We ran outside through the grass and dug in the dirt.
We went to the library and brought home a much too large pile of books and racked up a small fine after returning them late, even though we had read them the first day.
We ate popcorn and watched a movie, three snuggled deep in a blanket.
We wrote and learned lessons and did simple arithmetic and went to classes and played at parks and made new friends and fought with old ones.
We quarreled and stamped our feet and threw some things and screamed a bit.
I held my head in my hands and wondered what I was doing and if I could ever figure this parenting thing out.
We came back and looked at each other in our tear stained eyes and all apologized and forgave again.
We allowed the tide to chase us back to the shore and froze our toes in the cold, salty water.
The sun is shining more and we wait for the green new sprouts to spring out of the garden boxes. We sit and revel in the warmth on our faces. We find ourselves continually longing for more of that warmth to come. Oh summer, my heart is yearning for you.
It is easy to feel that the days must mean nothing since I barely seem to notice one from the other. I look forward to bedtime beginning at the lunch hour, and wake up feeling tired and not quite ready for the day to arrive. But oh how I am reminding myself right now, as I type these words and think about what our days have been full of, how important this time is, and how it is merely one season.
Young ones, so full of life, learning so much and sharing so much and needing so much and yet, becoming so independent at the same time. And here I am, failing and loving hard, and learning about second chances and grace and what it means to become and just be.
Keeping eyes open hard to find the gems tucked throughout.